Ok. So I took a little break for a second there. Sorry about that. But, for the record, things are going pretty ok.
I still have not found a job yet. So that is weighing heavy on my mind. I have applied at SOOOOO many places! I don't know if people just aren't hiring or if they just aren't hiring me. I had 2 interviews last week and I have one next week...It is stressful, though. I really need to get some kind of income coming in. I'm staying hopeful. I'm trying to stay positive. I'm just trying.
As far as not drinking, that has actually been pretty easy. I haven't had any urges or strong desires to drink. I think that's a good thing, but at the same time, I'm concerned that not drinking has been too easy. So I'm kind of waiting for it to hit me. Is this a calm before the storm type deal or is it really just this way? I have missed a few AA meetings, but I've been doing really good with my group therapy. I even feel like I have made a new friend through group. He seems like a genuine person and so I'm hoping that we can carry on a friendship even after we are both done with group. Time will tell.
My little sister and her boyfriend are moving in with me. I'm actually kind of concerned about that. I think that it will be good for her, but I worry about how my emotions will handle having the extra people here. I have gotten so used to being alone. Yet, that being said, I have kind of become a recluse. I don't really talk to anyone anymore and I don't like leaving the house. So maybe having them here will help me become social again.
I have an appointment with the psychiatrist on the 1st. I haven't been sleeping much and I lack motivation to do anything. I am hoping that we can figure out why these 2 things are happening. Maybe the lack of motivation is due to the lack of sleep. But I don't know why I am so unable to sleep. The pharmacist said that it shouldn't be because of my medicines, so I don't know what is going on.
Other than that, I think things are ok. I mean...I fell down the stairs and hurt my ankle, but it's ok, really. So yea. lol. I'll try to get back into regularly posting these blogs. I know that for some of you, it is the only real updates that you can get since I don't really get out much anymore.
So, happy Sunday!
