So this weekend is turning into quite the eventful one so far. And it all started with this gem yesterday:
31 days today. It has actually been a month. And despite the urge to lose my mind, I haven't actually harmed anyone yet. lol. I found a sponsor as well. So I'm really excited about that and she is super sweet.
When I left AA, I decided to celebrate a bit. So I went to the bar to shoot some pool with a couple of friends of mine. I had a couple of root beers and I had a blast! I did have this odd moment when I left though. I was on my way home and a friend of mine was riding with me. I passed my a cop and my heart stopped for a moment. I looked down and I was right on the speed limit. Perfect. I looked over at my friend and said "OMG! I'm doing the speed limit and I'm sober! Why am I so nervous?!" He said one word. "Habit."
It was such an enlightening moment for me. I was scared out of habit. For such a long time, I would be drunk and speeding on my way home. I wasn't last night. It was such a relief. I look forward to more nights like that. More nights where I get to break the habit of being nervous and scared on my way home.
When I left AA, I decided to celebrate a bit. So I went to the bar to shoot some pool with a couple of friends of mine. I had a couple of root beers and I had a blast! I did have this odd moment when I left though. I was on my way home and a friend of mine was riding with me. I passed my a cop and my heart stopped for a moment. I looked down and I was right on the speed limit. Perfect. I looked over at my friend and said "OMG! I'm doing the speed limit and I'm sober! Why am I so nervous?!" He said one word. "Habit."
It was such an enlightening moment for me. I was scared out of habit. For such a long time, I would be drunk and speeding on my way home. I wasn't last night. It was such a relief. I look forward to more nights like that. More nights where I get to break the habit of being nervous and scared on my way home.
Today is the annual End Addiction Birmingham Recovery Walk.
I def plan on going to that. I even have a couple of friends that are coming. My sister and her babies are gonna come too! I'm super excited!!!
I am still looking for a job. Nothing has panned out yet, but I am hopeful. I'm trying to avoid having to go to a restaurant or a bar for a job, but I'm not opposed if need be and I get desperate enough.
So here's to hoping and staying positive.
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